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mrs-ericharris:

I found this quote about Eric on a Columbine forum I stumbled across, and I just had to share it because i’ve never read anything so accurate and i’ve literally thought the same thing yet could not put it into words. I really think this is brilliant.
Eric was probably one of their number one fans. That image on the T-shirt is how i see Eric. He was like a child that plays around with matches , but he didn’t grow out of it. He did the opposite , and developed into pyromania , welcoming it with both arms , embracing it with singed finger tips. That image on the T-shirt , its a kind of impression of Eric’s being , the essence of his soul , his heart , because his energy , and his will , were incredibly destructive. Eric was apparently a small guy , [ compared to Dylan , etc] but his destructive energy made him feel like a giant , in heart and mind , because he had the power , Eric had the power to murder hundreds of people in a matter of minutes. A little fiery image on a T-shirt drove Eric. To me , his T-shirt speaks for him. I can imagine Eric thinking along these lines : ” I may look small , skinny and weak , but take notice of my shirt , take notice of the destruction , oh and if you happen to be around when my bombs go off….well , believe me , your gonna be burnt to a crisp , you all are!”
So , when i see that T-shirt , i see Eric’s rage , his destruction of innocents , and his own demise. I can imagine Eric thinking that way , you know , when he looks at the camera with a tight lipped smile. His mind is working overtime , but Eric keeps his thoughts to himself in the movie , leaving us to wonder , and guess his thoughts and feeling at particular times.
Although Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold are dead , they both still have power and control over us all. They might not have envisaged such a worldwide interest of them both , after their deaths. That may have been a underestimated view regarding their after death status. I feel that their very essence in life , their number one goal in life was driven by a explosion , and the kindling that fed those flames , fires , and apocalyptic explosions was anger , hate , and revenge.

mrs-ericharris:

I found this quote about Eric on a Columbine forum I stumbled across, and I just had to share it because i’ve never read anything so accurate and i’ve literally thought the same thing yet could not put it into words. I really think this is brilliant.

Eric was probably one of their number one fans. That image on the T-shirt is how i see Eric. He was like a child that plays around with matches , but he didn’t grow out of it. He did the opposite , and developed into pyromania , welcoming it with both arms , embracing it with singed finger tips. That image on the T-shirt , its a kind of impression of Eric’s being , the essence of his soul , his heart , because his energy , and his will , were incredibly destructive. Eric was apparently a small guy , [ compared to Dylan , etc] but his destructive energy made him feel like a giant , in heart and mind , because he had the power , Eric had the power to murder hundreds of people in a matter of minutes. A little fiery image on a T-shirt drove Eric. To me , his T-shirt speaks for him. I can imagine Eric thinking along these lines : ” I may look small , skinny and weak , but take notice of my shirt , take notice of the destruction , oh and if you happen to be around when my bombs go off….well , believe me , your gonna be burnt to a crisp , you all are!”

So , when i see that T-shirt , i see Eric’s rage , his destruction of innocents , and his own demise. I can imagine Eric thinking that way , you know , when he looks at the camera with a tight lipped smile. His mind is working overtime , but Eric keeps his thoughts to himself in the movie , leaving us to wonder , and guess his thoughts and feeling at particular times.

Although Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold are dead , they both still have power and control over us all. They might not have envisaged such a worldwide interest of them both , after their deaths. That may have been a underestimated view regarding their after death status. I feel that their very essence in life , their number one goal in life was driven by a explosion , and the kindling that fed those flames , fires , and apocalyptic explosions was anger , hate , and revenge.

crimeandcolumbine:

THE BASEMENT TAPES

The tapes were meant to be their final word, to all those who had picked on them over the years, and to everyone who would come up with a theory about their inner demons. It is clear listening to them that Harris and Klebold were not just having trouble with what their counselors called “anger management.” They fed the anger, fueled it, so the fury could take hold, because they knew they would need it to do what they had set out to do. “More rage. More rage,” Harris says. “Keep building it on,” he says, motioning with his hands for emphasis. 

Harris recalls how he moved around so much with his military family and always had to start over, “at the bottom of the ladder.” People continually made fun of him—“my face, my hair, my shirts.” As for Klebold, “If you could see all the anger I’ve stored over the past four fucking years…” he says. His brother Byron was popular and athletic and constantly “ripped” on him, as did the brother’s friends. Except for his parents, Klebold says, his extended family treated him like the runt of the litter. “You made me what I am,” he said. “You added to the rage.” As far back as the Foothills Day Care center, he hated the “stuck-up” kids he felt hated him. “Being shy didn’t help,” he admits. “I’m going to kill you all. You’ve been giving us shit for years.” 

Klebold and Harris were completely soaked in violence: in movies like Reservoir Dogs; in gory video games that they tailored to their imaginations. Harris liked to call himself “Reb,” short for rebel. Klebold’s nickname was VoDKa (his favorite liquor, with the capital DK for his initials). On pipe bombs used in the massacre he wrote “VoDKa Vengeance.” 

That they were aiming for 250 dead shows that their motives went far beyond targeting the people who teased them. They planned it very carefully: when they would strike, where they would put the bombs, whether the fire sprinklers would snuff out their fuses. They could hardly wait. Harris picks up the shotgun and makes shooting noises. “Isn’t it fun to get the respect that we’re going to deserve?” he asks. 

The tapes are a cloudy window on their moral order. They defend the friends who bought the guns for them, who Harris and Klebold say knew nothing of their intentions—as though they are concerned that innocent people not be blamed for their massacre of innocent people. If they hadn’t got the guns where they did, Harris says, “we would have found something else.” 

They had many chances to turn back—and many chances to get caught. They “came close” one day, when an employee of Green Mountain Guns called Harris’ house and his father answered the phone. “Hey, your clips are in,” the clerk said. His father replied that he hadn’t ordered any clips and, as Harris retells it, didn’t ask whether the clerk had dialed the right number. If either one had asked just one question, says Harris, “we would’ve been fucked.”

- TIME Magazine Exclusive: The Columbine Tapes. 

bobmarleynephew:

cactus-cock:

mineralists:

Green Amber (fossilized tree resin from an ancient relative of a tropical species called “algarroba”) from Dominican Republic

the universe

It looks like the sea

bobmarleynephew:

cactus-cock:

mineralists:

Green Amber (fossilized tree resin from an ancient relative of a tropical species called “algarroba”) from Dominican Republic

the universe

It looks like the sea

lol i dont want to reblog anything anymore because everything i reblog is wrong and people hate me i want to cry i dont take things well

Anonymous asked: I hate to tell you what/what not to do on your blog, I'd hate to be THAT person but, as a follower, I'm personally not comfortable with people re-blogging Columbine-related things. It seems to me a lot of people use the tragedy to get attention, especially on this website (not you, rather the main blogs who post the footage, photos, etc. as well as glorify it). I really like your blog, and I really don't want to unfollow, so I sent this. It would mean a lot if you to took this into consideration

I do not condone what they did what so ever. I am not looking to start issues with anyone and I understand your sentiment. I am interested in true crime and frankly I have always reblogged true crime in some form. Please do not lump me into the category of people that glorify their actions. I feel a tremendous heartache for all the victims. 

I’m sorry but I am not changing my blog for anyone but I will start tagging the subject matter accordingly. 

Thank you for never bothering to talk to me until I did something upsetting.